After seeing 2012’s annual report for my blog, I’ve gotten a stronger urge to write. The problem I’m finding, and it’s a bit of a challenge for next year, is that I’m not sure what to write about. In most cases, I follow where the inspiration leads, but it gets really difficult when there isn’t any inspiration. In the spirit of new year’s resolutions, I thought I’d come up with one specifically for this blog.
I’d like to say that even though I’ve written awesome posts, I’d like to write even more awesome posts in 2013. But, sadly, I can’t promise anything. What I can strive for, though, is a deeper honesty. In a writing class I took two years ago, we were taught to ask after every piece what it cost us, as in, what about this piece is uncomfortable to share? How much of myself is spent in what I share through here?
This is my one breaking point with many blogging and writing jobs; they want content created for the sake of having content created. What I’m compelled to do, however, is to write something somewhat meaningful – posts that cost me something to write. I just don’t like my words being empty, void of emotion and substance.
And yet, with as much of an internal urge or desire to write as I’ve had in recent weeks, I feel the challenge of writing in a greater frequency – like, instead of four or five posts a month, maybe ten or twelve. Having a challenge like this before me, though, forces me to write even without inspiration. And when inspiration isn’t available, I have nothing left to turn to except for honesty. If my goal, then, is to write more posts, they’ll likely have to be written with more honesty.
As my recent post posed the challenge of more intentional communication, this post poses the challenge of doing more stuff. Inspiration is rare, honesty less rare, and more activity even less rare. What I mean is, I can help my quantity by simply doing more. Going to more events in town, being involved more with ministries, or simply hanging out with friends – no matter what it is that I might commit myself to, if it involves doing more and getting out of the apartment more, it won’t hurt the writing.
My overall goal with this blog going into 2013 is to push myself with writing. It’s been a while since I listened to him, but a few years ago, Nelly remade a song title, “Heart of a Champion.” One line from that song that has always stuck with me is, “I push myself to the limit so my talent [will] surface.” Or in other words, the only way to run the fastest is to run more often.
What will this blog look like in 2013? At this point, I can’t tell. I’m striving for more honesty and more frequency, but I don’t know what that’ll look like. It depends on what I do and what the Lord presses on me. All I know is that on the brink of 2014, I don’t want to be looking back wishing I had challenged myself more. I want to look back feeling satisfied that I gave it my all, that I spent more than I was comfortable with.
P.S. I’d like to take a moment and thank my readers. You’re the reason I write and whatever success I’ve had in the past or may have in the future is owed to you. And Nate, you’re awesome!
Also, Brian Schaudt was here.
Happy New Year!